Sitting with confidence (written January 9,2013)

In my day to day life I wonder many times "why if I am destined for greatness and everything i need is to be provided for me why am I having difficulty with obtaining the mere necessities for maintenance in my day to day life?". Whether this is good or not good it is my thought and what is alarming to me is that it is a consistent thought. But I had a revelation today that is amazing. In my office we have two plastic green chairs and one is not sturdy. Though I am totally aware of one not being sturdy, I still sit on them and almost every time I feel the chair about to give away underneath me lol. This morning in my rush to sit and type out a thought I took that chair to sit on it. Being that I new the quality of chair I was sitting on I sat but not confidently as I would do with another more sturdy chair. Though I sat I really had no faith in my seat. My nerves were uneasy, every hair on my arms were standing, I mean total caution while I sat on this chair. My son touched me and I snapped at him "No! No! Don't touch me!" I said to him. All because of my lack of peace sitting in this chair. Now to some this may seem strange. What does this have to do with anything else? Just don't sit in that chair again! But to me this was an ah ha! moment. It was an answer to my question. I saw the reason why though I am destined for greatness and everything i need is to be provided for me, I was not obtaining the mere necessities for maintenance in my day to day life or the abundance that I am suppose to receive. A little confused? I know, Let me explain. The chair was there beneath me, it was not broken, it was not slipping, it was there underneath me. Though I have had bad experiences with the plastic chair slipping under me for this moment that was not what it was doing. It was just there standing as any other chair. what had an affect on me was not this chair, it was the negative though that the chair could possibly give away underneath me. I became scared, nervous and jumpy all because I sat in this chair. I spoke rough to my son and was very tense, all because I chose to sit in a chair that I had no confidence in. So for those few minutes I subjected myself to something I did not have to. Which is something we as people do on a day to day basis. But by doing this I learned two things. One stop subjecting my self to unnecessary challenges. Two become more confident in what God the son, Jesus, has promised. Do not allow the lack of sturdiness in my experiences cause me to sit in fear rather than sit with confidence. Allow myself to just rest in what he has said. Not sitting because I think that I could lean for a minute, but sitting knowing that He can hold me up. Placing everything in His hands. Trusting that as I do what He has enabled me to do, He will also bring me all the way through victoriously and receiving positive abundantly. Having the faith that doubt or fear can not penetrate. Knowing that what was promised will be given to me.So as I encourage myself I encourage you to Sit with Confidence.